Red flags i ignored
During this weekend in Gatlinburg, there were some red flags that i ignored. But of course why would I pay attention to red flags when this was just a weekend? I mean he was just someone to hang out with while i was there. Someone to have fun with, FOR THE WEEKEND. So what did it matter to me? But, I feel it's necessary to go back to this time and explain the red flags that were there.
The first red flag would be the level of alcohol consumption. There was drinking every night, but the night of the wedding was the worst. Most everyone was drinking, but Joey was on a different level. He was drinking too get as drunk as possible. Between 3 people 2 fifths of crown were consumed and that still wasn't enough for Joey. He wanted more. Keep in mind that he had just spent the night in jail and lost his license due to getting a DUI. But thát wasn't stopping him. He wanted more. I don't really remember if anyone went to the store and bought more or if there was more things to drink there, but i know he didn't stop drinking until there was nothing left to drink.
Red flag number two would be the use of marijuana. Now this i didn't think too much of because even though i had never been much of a drinker, i had a time in my life where i smoked weed daily for about 6 months. I didn't smoke a lot, but enough to help with pain from a back injury. But i do remember thinking to myself that i would have been in a comatose state if i were to ever smoke the amount he smoked that weekend.
The last red flag would be a lack of respect for others. He didn't disrespect me in any way that weekend, and honestly i don't know thát i thought of these things as disrespectful then in the way i do now. But some of these things included harassing the newly married couple on their wedding night by banging on the door and telling them to "hurry up". The excessive drinking, smoking weed, and cursing in front of and even with his own mother. And then there were just comments here and there about others thát looking back on were disrespectful.
But again, why did any of this matter? Come Monday we were going home to our individual lives and the weekend would be just a memory. Just a fun weekend spent in the mountains, celebrating the marriage of two people thát we cared about. But it matters because of the other signs i seen during that weekend. The signs of who Joey was underneath all the drinking, and pot smoking, and disrespectful mannerisms. I seen a loving, caring, laid back, quirky individual. There was a magnetism about that Joey that i couldn't ignore. One so strong that it pulled me in against all my best intentions. One that started me on the path of falling in love with an addict.
until next time....thanks for reading :)
The first red flag would be the level of alcohol consumption. There was drinking every night, but the night of the wedding was the worst. Most everyone was drinking, but Joey was on a different level. He was drinking too get as drunk as possible. Between 3 people 2 fifths of crown were consumed and that still wasn't enough for Joey. He wanted more. Keep in mind that he had just spent the night in jail and lost his license due to getting a DUI. But thát wasn't stopping him. He wanted more. I don't really remember if anyone went to the store and bought more or if there was more things to drink there, but i know he didn't stop drinking until there was nothing left to drink.
Red flag number two would be the use of marijuana. Now this i didn't think too much of because even though i had never been much of a drinker, i had a time in my life where i smoked weed daily for about 6 months. I didn't smoke a lot, but enough to help with pain from a back injury. But i do remember thinking to myself that i would have been in a comatose state if i were to ever smoke the amount he smoked that weekend.
The last red flag would be a lack of respect for others. He didn't disrespect me in any way that weekend, and honestly i don't know thát i thought of these things as disrespectful then in the way i do now. But some of these things included harassing the newly married couple on their wedding night by banging on the door and telling them to "hurry up". The excessive drinking, smoking weed, and cursing in front of and even with his own mother. And then there were just comments here and there about others thát looking back on were disrespectful.
But again, why did any of this matter? Come Monday we were going home to our individual lives and the weekend would be just a memory. Just a fun weekend spent in the mountains, celebrating the marriage of two people thát we cared about. But it matters because of the other signs i seen during that weekend. The signs of who Joey was underneath all the drinking, and pot smoking, and disrespectful mannerisms. I seen a loving, caring, laid back, quirky individual. There was a magnetism about that Joey that i couldn't ignore. One so strong that it pulled me in against all my best intentions. One that started me on the path of falling in love with an addict.
until next time....thanks for reading :)